I’m trying to think of what’s new to tell and really nothing
is new. Maybe that’s a good thing? I know this election has been driving my IBS
nuts-o. I simply can’t handle it anymore. It’s not “negative adds” some people
complain about that annoys me it’s the nervousness of it all. The cramps that
come from every channel telling me the “latest polls” which I think are bogus; the
bubbling of stomach pressure after eating like mad and pacing the floor while
the “non-biased commentator” clearly feeds a candidate his lines and wondering
IS EVERYONE else seeing/hearing this? And HOPING America does but then when the
debates’ over its immediately obvious that nope… media continues to ignore it
and takes Americans for saps. I just want the conclusion NOW. Kinda like the
nervousness of waiting to find out how many people and WHO Voltimort ends up
killing before he’s destroyed before watching the last movie (or reading the
last book if you’re someone who reads, which I don’t).
It’s really quite weird that November is NEXT week. It’s
really…gosh what’s my feeling on it? Humm I like it! And taken-back that its
HERE! I got Ben’s Halloween outfit mostly put together I think I’m just a
little stuck on the jacket BUT I think its gonna be awesome. It’s not from
anything I’ve seen or heard of but from my own imagination. I remember Bek
saying, oh gosh, YEARS ago how she could see especially me having so much fun
dressing up my kids for Halloween and I was like umm ok sure..? But Ya, she was
right (yet again) it has been pretty fun. I enjoyed last years 45 min before
going to the ward party and thinking ok I have no costume, zero money, what the
crap should I do? Then it hit me, oh dah he’s baby Harry Potter and I’ll go as
Hagrid and we did and got a TON of compliments, there was only one woman who
didn’t get it but she admitted she’d only seen one of the movies years ago and
didn’t remember anything expect it was “too violent” oh and she was like 90
years old and asked if it was okay that I was cross-dressing. Haha
I’ll put up pictures after Friday (that’s when I’ll be
taking him to Tom’s kid work party and prob the ward party day too) I predict
now that Ben won’t hold on to his candy bucket and upon receiving a treat will
take it out of his bucket and throw it. And really I think the biggest
challenge will be keeping his costume on him and not letting him take it all
off! I mean please…
It’s funny the thought of candy does nothing for me.
Seriously. I love me some peanut M&M’s now and again but I haven’t had any
for a quite some time and they still don’t sound all that exciting. Woo hoo! HOWEVER,
Lacey did come stay with me for a few days last week and brough ice cream with
her….DANG her! Lol My latest food kick I’ve been on (WHICH I’m happy I’m ON
one!) has been BLT’s I have a big ‘ol lettuce bed SLATHERED with a pretty
awesome amount of Mayo (really I don’t want to say how much but it’s quite
fantastic) and a LOT of bacon (on the too-cooked side which I like) and a few
slices of tomatoes which I’m NOT suppose to be eating but…I AM! I can’t
remember if I’ve mentioned in my last blog but I’m supposed to be on meats and
fats only diet, no veggies. I haven’t been very good at it. I think variation
is the toughest part of living as strict as I do. I often become easily
irritated when I hear complaining about other “dieting restrictions” when they
are sooo easy. But it all comes back and down to my fairness issue getting
poked at and Tom helps remind me (yet again) to not compare and try to
concentrate on what I have. In fact, I came across one of those World Traveler
shows showing life ANYWHERE but the US and wow… it’s not like I haven’t seen
any of those striking, unimaginable realties many times before but come on!!!!
How can it not stop ya right in your tracks and make you IMMEDIATELY think…ya
MY problems are NOT problems! Starvation, exposure, flooding, droughts, no
readily available doctors, medicines, hospitals, vaccines, I don’t face
thousands of years-long civil war, sex trade, no one’s threatening my personal
life due to my gender, race, religion, I have access to education, free
enterprise, so many freedoms and rights/rites.
With that said, I have a doctors appointment next week and I
can’t tell you HOW ready I am for it! Among other check-up things I am going to
get this bloody B.C. out of my body. Detesting birth control is nothing new nor
are the known effects it has on me but this year long experiment is SO over!
NOOOOooo I’m not trying to get pregnant. I still need time to get back to
normal mentally and a second baby still freaks me out THOUGH the idea of having
a little girl IS appealing. I am worried of going through another 9 months of
morning sickness, gaining another Lindsay Lohan WITHOUT fully losing the one I
still have, and now afraid more than EVER about going through labor!!!! Oh and
I want to have the full experience of excitement and longing first!
